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I realized today that my iPhone is more of a barrier than a boon to my levels of online engagement. Sure, it's nice to browse the web in all its unfiltered glory at work. But the phone makes it just that much harder to comment--I find posts and say "ooh, I'll say something here when I get home" and then I get home and, surprise surprise, I don't actually go back and comment. Not sure what I'm going to do about this, just noticed it today and figured it was (*ahem*) worthy of comment.
I have also observed that as I begin to distance myself from the category of "woman" it becomes easier to write female characters. Do I feel more comfortable writing from a female prospective because I'm no longer trying to shove my feelings/experiences in and being frustrated when they don't fit? Or is it because writing from the outside makes it easier not to care if you're fucking it up or not? This observation is brought to you by Erica Rhodes. (This RPF bug is mighty catching.)
I did a lot of thinking over the weekend and decided to cancel the therapy appointment I had scheduled for tomorrow. I just didn't feel comfortable talking to the person they set me up with. I had reservations from the beginning, but I thought maybe my discomfort with the therapist was just because this is a whole new experience. But I went to the Ingersoll group meeting last Wednesday and felt much more comfortable. Maybe I'll try someone else through my insurance, maybe I'll try finding someone through that group.
As always, stressing over the decision led to cleaning. This time, I pruned three bookcases and painted the library a pleasing shade of turquoise-y blue. All the public domain books are boxed up to be given away. What's left is now horribly disorganized, but the cat seems pleased.
And as we all know, all is well if the cat is pleased.
I have also observed that as I begin to distance myself from the category of "woman" it becomes easier to write female characters. Do I feel more comfortable writing from a female prospective because I'm no longer trying to shove my feelings/experiences in and being frustrated when they don't fit? Or is it because writing from the outside makes it easier not to care if you're fucking it up or not? This observation is brought to you by Erica Rhodes. (This RPF bug is mighty catching.)
I did a lot of thinking over the weekend and decided to cancel the therapy appointment I had scheduled for tomorrow. I just didn't feel comfortable talking to the person they set me up with. I had reservations from the beginning, but I thought maybe my discomfort with the therapist was just because this is a whole new experience. But I went to the Ingersoll group meeting last Wednesday and felt much more comfortable. Maybe I'll try someone else through my insurance, maybe I'll try finding someone through that group.
As always, stressing over the decision led to cleaning. This time, I pruned three bookcases and painted the library a pleasing shade of turquoise-y blue. All the public domain books are boxed up to be given away. What's left is now horribly disorganized, but the cat seems pleased.
And as we all know, all is well if the cat is pleased.